Thursday, June 24, 2010

RAIN...RAIN....RAIN... WooWeeee.....

I had been waiting under this tin shade, trying to get some protection from the rain. It was awesome... monsoon had arrived, baby! There were others with me. I hadn't expected it to rain so heavily. It was so sudden. Just a little while ago it was a clear sky and then a downpour like this one. To much of my dismay, my clothes were drenched and so I had to wait till it stopped raining. I had to go to the home and they wouldn't let me in like this!

I was on holiday... and worse... I was holidaying alone!. I turned towards the street. It was a beautiful scene out there!The heavy rain and the magnificent background of evergreen trees. That earthy aroma in the air was to die for. That is exactly what I needed at that time. I wanted a break from the ruckus and the number of tragedies I went through in recent past.

I did not have any interest in checking out the pretty girls.. I was there for relaxation... and girls have always been pain! I was staring at the clouds and how the rain drops fell on the bricked road and how the drop broke apart! I looked down on the road and amidst the black and white photograph came a bright saffron coloured flip flop. The feet were pretty and seemed to be swaying along with the wind. I looked up. The girl... there she was.! Perhaps the only girl whom I had seen there. Not that the town was short of girls... but she was the only one I saw properly. She had an umbrella which she closed and stood right next to me under the shade. Shamelessly, I kept looking at her.

Breaking the awkward silence, she said, "Do you mind drinking your tea??"
I felt embarrassed and said a very polite sorry! She paid no heed. I still tried looking at her through the side view. She had rain drops smudged all over her arm. Her finger nails were naked and bright pink. Her saffron flip flops had the prettiest feet.. only after my mother's though!
Somehow she got to know that I was still checking her out. So she asked, "You're a tourist, right?"
I nodded.

"Then why can't you people just respect us? We're being good to you and you're being cheap to us? Why? Is this how you will treat tourists in your own town, eh?"

I smiled and replied, "I'm really sorry. I did not mean to trouble you... I was jus(t)..."

"Whatever. You don't mean to.. but you certainly are!"

"I'm really.. extremely.. very sorry!"

"Hmmm...."

And the frown did not leave her forehead. Something about that frown was strikingly familiar. The way she frowned and said nothing but a "hmmm..."

And she looked at me with that familiar shock. She was always like that.
"No" said she and walked away. I stayed there dumbstruck as I watched her walking without the umbrella, drenched in rain and keeping her back to me.

I still do not know why that happened. I know it was her. In the wake of finding her again, and closer to God... hoping to find her..

Till then, I will keep collecting the rain.. She loves it.

Sunday, June 20, 2010


CHEATING AND ADULTERY 

It is about cheating, adultery or watever they call it, this time.

I wonder at times, why do people decide to marry someone out of their own will and then, boom! they cheat on the very same partners. What triggers it?

Frankly, I think every cheater has an excuse and here are some examples : (things I have heard from the horse's mouth)

- My husband/wife does not have time for me.
- There is no passion left.
- I think I never loved him/her in the first place.
- I deserve better.
- She/He does not understand me.

I have just one question - Why the F did you marry that person then? Anyways, this is pure bullshit. ;) We all know that.. Even the people throwing it at us... know it.

And then I would want to definitely go inside the woman's mind who is being cheated by husband/boyfriend and they still cling to the relationship and try to make things work or as they say, accept it as it is. *Sigh*

My point is - The very moment you realize you are not in love with your partner. Tell them. Tell them before you end up cheating on them with someone else coz that bloody hurts more... and it breaks a person completely emotionally.

The very first sign of detachment should be recognized and addressed. Why cheat?

I mean, you go and sleep around or get emotionally attached while someone is out there waiting for you, thinking that you are as much as in love with them as they are... Dah! isn't that sick? I mean, I donno... may be I am a different person...but doing something like that, is unacceptable.

Cheating is no more confined to sex only... there is emotional cheating too. You don't sleep with a certain person but you do share your life, whats up there in ur mind and heart with the other person...you form a bond ...that is meant to be formed with your spouse or partner or probably you fall in love with someone else.

Simple thing is : When you think you will cheat...or things are not going the way they should be. Talk it out. The other person has a right to their life too. If you don't love them, tell them. Let them decide for their own life.

Let me tell you one more thing, a person who cheats almost all the time blames the partner for their philandering ways, which is crap. Like they say, every wrong doing has some 'right' excuse to support it so one can escape the moral blame or guilt.

*shrugs* I have no respect for someone who cheats, no matter for watsoever reasons coz Cheating has no justification...Simple...